Did you miss me?

Nah. You're probably used to my one blog per month. And whats really sad is I only give readers about 5 sentences to read. I should work on that. I should stop saying that in every post, and actually start doing something about my problem.

So....

Last post was sometime before April.

April 24th, I got a Pit Bull Puppy.

Finally..... It Happened!!

Her name is Bella and on April 24th she was 6 weeks old. Now she's about 3 or 3 1/2 months old. Time flies, don't it? She is Tan and White. Yes, I know I said I would never get a white dog, but she was just too darn cute, I couldn't say no. That would be cruel to put 3 adorable (white) pitbull puppies in front of ME (of all people) and expect me to say no. Crazy! She actually has a lot of tan on her and her nose is black. She has the sadest eyes and an apple on her side. You'd have to see it. Too bad I don't have a PeeC anymore to post pics. Just go to my yahoo photos to see her pics.

So I've been pretty busy with her, she can really be a handful at times but I love her and wouldn't trade her for the world. (even though Chris disagrees)

Busy. Busy. Not too busy.

I've still attended Putt Putt at least once a day. But usually twice.

Must be nice.

Just another day.....

Only thing different about me today is that I can now say that I have seen "I Heart Huckabees" & "The Final Cut".

And I could also say that I scored a 350 today at Skeeball. I was excited.

Still am actually. I now have a total of 310 points. I really haven't set any goals yet considering I've barely gotten my feet wet in this exciting game of Skeeball.

Did I mention that I am also a member of the Putt Putt Savers' Club? Well, as of Saturday, I am. I don't think my card has anything on it yet, but tomorrow when I go I plan on getting all my points I've saved added to it. (and maybe while im at the counter I can sneak a peek at their prize selection & start thinking about setting some goals.)

I'm probably going to get some advice from my sister, since she knows a thing or two about the game. She's already got a Spiderman and a Donkey to prove it. We'll see how it goes.

Your probably wondering where my sudden interest in Skeeball came from........ I admit, I always enjoyed playing but it wasn't till this Major Conspiracy on my friend Justin really got serious, that I had free time to play. Actually, my whole life is basically free time, but up until just recently... I actually had someone to spend it with. How pathetic.

Oh Well... Everyday, little by little, I pack up my stuff to go back to Cranfills Gap. Hopefully, I am able to get a puppy before I go back. Then I would have a more stable friend. No offense to Allens parents, but hanging out with old people all day every day isn't always so exciting. But if I had a puppy, it would be so much more fun. Plus the two of them have eachother, and then I'm like the third wheel.

Now don't get me wrong, I love Scout & Frankie and Scooby. But those aren't "my" pets. I've never had a puppy of my own, and that's what I want. I can't keep getting attached to other peoples pets, its usually because of those other people that I end up heart broken.

But before I get too emotional with all of that.. I'm gonna go.

Wish me luck tomorrow!

It's Thursday...... Or at least I think it is.

Actually, I know it is. Today is the first day I receive my first paycheck. It was for $50.00 and it was deposited directly into my checking account. That will happen every other Thursday for as long as.... I dunno. So aren't you wondering why I am getting a paycheck? You know I don't have a job. Basically, my dad told me that he is going to pay me to do nothing. Now, most 21 year olds would be like "HELL YA DUDE!" like dumbasses. I, on the other hand, am ashamed of myself. Basically, my dad is saying that I am a loser. But he's right, I'm not going anywhere in life, but I still have to have some money to eat and what not. So even though $50.00/2weeks for doing nothing seems nice..... It's going to be a good lesson in money management and responsibility. Hmmmm..... I'm going to the mall. Syke!

Back.. And even more depressed.

Yesterday was just like all the rest. But I woke up fairly early actually to drive my dad to work. Then I came home to finish watching "The Million Dollar Hotel", which was a great movie. (One I think my sister would definitely enjoy. hint.) So as my day progressed... I did some laundry while puppy-sitting. Yay! Then it happens. I receive a text message from Steven Ford at 6:43pm saying that he had to put Rosco to sleep. Oh No!! It gets worse..... Rosco attacked Steven. I was shocked! Still am. I can't even begin to imagine what Steven Ford is feeling.

See.. I told you it snowed in Friendswood. Cool, huh? 

Merry Christmas.... 20 minutes in advance.

Well, if you have been dreaming of a white christmas...... Looks like your gonna get it. I don't know what to think. It's weird. It's cool, but it sucks when you have to drive. Maybe I am the only one still thinking about it. People up north probably don't even notice when it snows because it's normal. It's 33degrees, but I don't think it's that cold. It could be the turtleneck that I am wearing today that is making me feel that way. I usually don't wear turtlenecks, actually... I never wear them. But it looked warm and I liked the colors, so I thought I'd give it a shot. So..... It's Christmas Eve, i'm wearing a turtleneck, and it's snowing.. What a day! Until next time.... Merry Christmas To All... And To All A Good Night!

This just in.....

I haven't even started looking for a job.
I haven't really helped my mom out.
I made it to where my mom doesn't want to talk to me.
I haven't kept in touch with Boo's parents or his brothers.
I haven't really played with Chloe as much as I would like to.
I got my room cleaned. But it's a mess again.
My sister took off to Cali.
I've gotten one letter from Boo in the last 2 weeks.
The Buick got a mp3 player. But I don't know how to make mp3 disks.
I am a retard.

HEY BUDDY!!!
WOSS NESS 4 LIFE.

me! 

Dial Up Kicks Ass! Skye.

Dial Up! Dial Up! It's the Best! Put your modem to the test! Just a fun little song to start out my very first blog for the last 2 months.. Jeez! I really am good about sticking with things. Heh Heh.. So I went to see my boyfriend today.. He looked really good.. And he seemed to be doing a lot better. But of course, he wants out. But I guess if I was in jail, I'd be wanting out.. But at least he's mature enough to understand that he is in there because of his own stupid actions, and now he's having to suffer the consequences. Let's just pray that he doesn't have to be in there 8 or 15 years. Let's pray for 3-4. But I think I do a good job of writing him everyday, and he calls me at his parents every other day, and now my sister and mom are going to start writing him. He really enjoys mail. Really, Mail is the only thing he has to look forward to besides visitations on fridays and getting released. (which isn't happening anytime soon) But I appreciate you guy's support... Mom and Moxie! Allen really appreciates it too. Anyway, I'm going to go eat now. I thought I'd say hello. I will definitely write more next time.. Oh ya, I tried to get my boyfriends parents to go to Putt Putt for some SkeeBall.. They said no. It's ok, they're old. They probably wouldn't have as much fun as like my sister does. Also, a word of advice..... If you want to upload photos onto your online album. DO NOT USE DIAL UP! DUH? Who would? But when it's all you got, you got to right? Bye Bye 4 Now!

I'm updating.... Big Deal. Only because I have no one else to talk to.

I ruined my mom's life.
I messed up my sister's boyfriends evidence for his court case. (on purpose mind you)
I probably upset my sister, and jeopardized her relationship with her boyfriend becaues of this.
I don't care for him right now.
I didn't really care for him the first time I ever met him.
I adjusted to that.
I let down my guard because I love my sister. She's my best friend.
I have the best boyfriend a girl like me could ever ask for. (well, most of the time anyway)
I am lucky to even actually be accepted by this boyfriend of mine.
I can't be with him anymore.
I lost my best friend.
I should start looking for a job. (is what my mom says)
I knew this would one day happen. (so did he, along with everyone else)
I just didn't realize it would hurt so bad.
I didn't think I would cause as many problems as it's caused.
I didn't think that I would be the person in which everyone blamed.
I know that no one is interested in what I have to say.
I know I am a bitch all the time, that's why no one wants to hear what I have to say.
I also know that.........
I am alone.
I don't think anyone really cares.
I have to live the rest of my life feeling guilty for all of this.
I will do it too.
I don't care about myself.
I care about my best friend, my only friend.
I am without.

I have an idea!

I think someone who has a whole lot of money should make a secret get-away retreat thing/place where people can go when they've had enough. I could be like a alternate place to escape without committing suicide. But I think there would have to be some criteria in which these fed up people would have to meet. But I could go on about this forever, but it probably won't ever happen, and if it did, with my luck I wouldn't qualify to go. I obviously have a problem telling people no. In the past, it's gotten me in alot of trouble. Wait..... it still is today. What if I can't say no? Like.... If I say yes, I will be miserable and if I say no, I will be miserable. What to do. What to do. Maybe i'll die, and then I can submit that as my answer. And this happens with every question I get asked, I'm not just talking about one particular question that I'm struggling with. It's like I have no ambitiion now. Although, I never actually had much of it to begin with.

hello! (<--- that was a good one)

My sister told me a funny story the other day that I hope she doesn't mind me sharing..... For those of you who don't know this (and hopefully don't really care), my sister and I have the cutest panties by Hanes from Wal-Mart. Well.... The other day she just happened to be wearing her pink & white striped ones when she noticed the girl sitting next to her was wearing the exact same ones. I guess the girl must have been leaning over or something. Molly said that she really wanted to comment on their matching underpants, but she didn't because she thought it could be weird. The girl could have came back with, "PERVERT! LESBO! Stop looking at my butt!" Or she could be like, "COOL!" Who Knows? I just hope that I fall into a similar situation like my sister did, because I will definitely make a comment. Just to see what the response would be. (hopefully I don't get my ass kicked)

WOW! So, my sister wants me to go to the gym with her this afternoon. I'm not sure if I am going to go or not. I really would like to get started working out weekly, but after that last work out. OUCH! I couldn't walk or move for almost 4 days. I guess after a while, I won't be so sore in the days that follow. Well whatever I decide to do.... wish me luck!

I CAN"T SEE!!! what's wrong with me?

I'll tell you what's wrong. I've been stuck in this damn apartment for 300 days (aka 12 hours). YAY! I'm a bit hungry, I have 2 cigarettes left, i need a haircut and a puppy, I have no money, and my EYES are dying. I think it's because I haven't changed my contacts in a month, and I dont' have any new ones to put in, so therefore, this is a problem. My new name is Cecilia by the way. Well, to this one girl anyway. I'm not sure what to think about this one girl. I can't even think of her name to be honest. Cassidy? something like that. Anyway... I'm pretty sure she's around the age of 19 or 20, but she talks like a 1 year old. I get the feeling that she does this to be cute, and get attention. I feel bad for her. If I wanted attention, I would set myself on fire and run around this place singing FireStarter by Prodigy. But that's just me. Come to find out, she's one of those "ravers". So my critical comments on glow sticks,stomping, bad boy bill, pacifiers, beads and cuddle puddles didn't fly with her. She actually took offense. Whoa! So anyway, a little earlier she decided to invite herself over. After that, she decided to lean over my shoulder and butt in on my conversation I was having with my sister. Now if I wasn't so hung up on physical violence being the worst, most immature way of handling conflict, I would have kicked that bitches ass. (or try to anyway, im not very tough) So anyway... the reason i'm so agile is because everytime my sister would IM me back, that stupid girl would make some totally out of line & untrue comment suggesting that my sister is some kind of retard. YEAH! Let's not forget who talks like a baby to get attention from guys. (that aren't even cute) Anyway.. my sister IM'd me something about Chemistry and some equation, I forget. I just remember it had a lot of big words in it. So, the girl starts laughing, and goes "What's really sad is, this girl has no idea what she is talking about." (this is when I wanted to break the on her face)But I remained calm, and explained to her that my sister is everything but dumb. She's probably smarter than everyone in the apartment. And that's sad because there was about 8 of us. Her response.... "She's your little sister, she's a kid" (now Im pissed) I thought to myself... "who are you calling a kid, trick? You have the vocabulary and tone of voice of a 1 year old." Ya! I was also under the impression that she was trying to play buddy buddy with me, and talk bad about my sister. But I let her calmly explained to her that it would be best if she left, considering she wasn't invited in the first place, and that my sister is my best friend and I have alot of respect for her. Which is way more than I could even imagine saying about herself. I also let her know that there was no chance in hell that me and her could ever be friends, so she may as well quit trying. She's was only making herself look pathetic. And she wants to avoid that if at all possible, unless she decides to grow up and drop the whole toddler thing. And even then, I still wouldn't talk to her, so I told her not to come around me anymore. Well... I'm mad now and don't feel like discussing this anymore. Bye Bye for Now!

So far... Not so good.

Good News!! One more person in which I love thinks Im a screw up. I can't even park a car correctly. What's wrong with me? I mean, I know how to park a car, I took drivers ed. Maybe I was just being lazy & wreckless. Or maybe I was just in a rush. Or maybe Im just taking the blame (once again) for something I didn't do. (it's because Im weak, and just let people walk all over me instead of sticking up for myself) The reason I don't bother trying to help myself is because it's pointless. No matter what I say, whenever I say it, or to whom ever I say it to......... Im Wrong! And now Im acting like he doesn't want me to get a job. Hmm... Correct me if Im wrong (which I probably am) but I shouldn't get a job in Houston if I live in Dallas. And ever since me and him had the discussion on me needing to get a job (which was about 3 weeks ago), we have been in Houston. We went to Dallas for like 3 days but what was the point in getting a job then if Id have to ask for my first week off? It's not like I haven't done any research on jobs in dallas. I found a bunch of places that I really want to work at. But im in Houston. ***This just in........ I should be at home right now (in dallas that is)*** Im never where Im supposed to be. Im never doing what Im supposed to be doing. Im never talking about what Im supposed to be talking about. Im never eating what Im supposed to eat. Im never sleeping when Im supposed to sleep. Insubordination. That's obviously one word you could use to describe Mallory.

Anyway....... Enough about me being the biggest waste of space.

I had a pretty good time yesterday. It's was my little sister's 18th birthday. My mom, dad, chloe and I all drove up to College Station to visit her. The trip actually went pretty smoothly. I was suprised! My dad used to hate animals, but now..... I don't know if that's entirely true. He took Chloe for a long walk while me and mom went inside H.E.B for balloons. And he actually let her in his car. Weird! I felt like such the outcast while in College Station. (not just because I wasn't sporting maroon A & M attire) But because everyone there had a plan. Everyone there was also younger than I am. But I don't have a plan. I want to have a plan, but things just never seem to work out in my favor. College/campus life is so happy. It's like one big family. Everybody knows eachother, everybody is extremely friendly, and best of all...... everybody is doing something with their life. I felt like I was wearing a big sign over my head that said "20 year old LOSER!"

But enough about me, it was good to see my sister happy. I don't think I will worry about her as much anymore now that Ive seen her dorm room and met her roommate and experienced "aggieland". I think she'll be okay. Im glad we were able to bring Chloe. I know that was the highlight of Molly's birthday. Seeing her dog. I know it would be the highlight of my birthday. Actually, it would be the highlight everyday for me to see my dog. (if I had one) Which brings me to my next reason for being "not so happy" in life........

*A dog. (an american pit bull- blue nose preferably)
Im pretty sure I won't be getting one. EVER. Well as long as Im with Allen. And since I don't want to lose Allen, I guess I just wont have a dog. I just wish he wouldn't joke around about me getting one like he does. He doesn't realize how important a dog would be to me. He doesn't care, probably because he doesn't like dogs as much as I do. But I don't think he should rub it in my face that I'll never get one. It really hurts my feelings. I miss my dog Boy. I miss him alot. I just wish Allen could respect my feelings about it a little more. Oh Well. I still have Chloe "the cuteness", which I get to see every other week or so. I wish I could see her more, but I can't complain. Well.... I could "BLOG" all day long about dogs and everything else but I won't.

Back to sitting at this couple's apartment and listening to them fight, and me feeling uncomfortable, and needing to take a shower, and my boyfriend making me feel like a complete screw up.

Hi Guys! This is my first time........ My name's Mallory by the way.

This whole "BLOG" thing sounded like a good idea when my sister introduced it to me the other day. But after deciding to "BLOG" on my own..... I don't know what to do. Maybe Im just not familiar with the word "BLOG". Maybe it's not even a word. Maybe it was something someone made up. Maybe it's because they were being creative. Maybe the whole idea of this "BLOG" business is to be creative. Maybe I'll stop thinking about this so much and...... BLOG IT UP!