Allen.. My boyfriend.. My best friend.. Was sentenced to 15 years in a federal prison with no chance for parole. He was sentenced last Thursday.. But I just talked to his mom and found out. It really hasn't sunk in for me yet.. But when it does... You'll be hearing from me again.
Probably soon..
This isn't fair.
15 years for 6 months of criminal activity.
The whole Federal Goverment is a Crock!
Thursday, July 28, 2005
Monday, July 18, 2005
Just when everyone thought Mallory couldn't do anything stupider...
SHE DOES!!
This time, it's not only the stupidest of the stupid, it's the most humiliating thing ever.
It could have killed me, but it didn't.
Instead it put me in surgery for 2 hours and the hospital for 2 days.
It also made me unable to move, use the restroom or do anything else by myself.
I just hope my family can find it in their hearts to forgive me.
This is something I am going to have to forget, even though it's going to take time.
And what hurts most of all is........ I can't play with my dog. The one joy in my life and I'm too sick to go outside and let her jump on me and lick me and play with me.
This time, it's not only the stupidest of the stupid, it's the most humiliating thing ever.
It could have killed me, but it didn't.
Instead it put me in surgery for 2 hours and the hospital for 2 days.
It also made me unable to move, use the restroom or do anything else by myself.
I just hope my family can find it in their hearts to forgive me.
This is something I am going to have to forget, even though it's going to take time.
And what hurts most of all is........ I can't play with my dog. The one joy in my life and I'm too sick to go outside and let her jump on me and lick me and play with me.
Thursday, July 07, 2005
Rain. Rain. Go Away.....
Father, hear my prayer
I need the perfect words
Words that he will hear
And know they're straight from You
I don't know what to say
I only know it hurts
To see my only friend slowly fade away
Chorus:
So maybe this time
I'll speak the words of life
With Your fire in my eyes
But that old familiar fear
is tearin' at my words
What am I so afraid of?
'Cause here I go again
Talkin' 'bout the rain
And mullin' over things
that won't live past today
And as I dance around the truth
Time is not his friend
This might be my last chance
to tell him that You love Him
But here I go again
Here I go again
Lord, You love him so
You gave Your only Son
If he will just believe
He will never die
But how then will he know
What he has never heard?
Lord he has never seen mirrored in my life
But here I go again
Here I go, here I go
This might be my last chance
To tell him that You love him
This might be my last chance
To tell him that You love him
You love him, You love him
What am I so afraid
What am I so afraid
What am I so afraid of?
How then will he know
What he has never heard?
I can remember the first time I ever heard this song. Molly came to pick me up from Allens friends house in Houston. I was so excited because I just got a new pipe and Allen gave me a healthy sack of dope to enjoy while I was home for the weekend. Nice, right? On the ride home, Molly put this song on and was quietly singing along. It wasn't till she hit repeat that I started to really listen to the words, by the end of the song I had to keep my head turned towards the window to hide my tears. Heaven Forbid Molly catch me expressing my feelings. She was probably just listening to it because she likes it, it's a good song, but it meant alot more to me. It really made me think, and it seemed appropriate for the situation. Me being the troubled one in the family, I never actually thought of what my actions were probably doing to my family. Selfish. I know better now. I've since then realized the error of my ways.
But what if I hadn't of realized when I did?
What if my selfishness went so far that I did something that was unfixable?
My prayers go out to Whitney and her family.
I need the perfect words
Words that he will hear
And know they're straight from You
I don't know what to say
I only know it hurts
To see my only friend slowly fade away
Chorus:
So maybe this time
I'll speak the words of life
With Your fire in my eyes
But that old familiar fear
is tearin' at my words
What am I so afraid of?
'Cause here I go again
Talkin' 'bout the rain
And mullin' over things
that won't live past today
And as I dance around the truth
Time is not his friend
This might be my last chance
to tell him that You love Him
But here I go again
Here I go again
Lord, You love him so
You gave Your only Son
If he will just believe
He will never die
But how then will he know
What he has never heard?
Lord he has never seen mirrored in my life
But here I go again
Here I go, here I go
This might be my last chance
To tell him that You love him
This might be my last chance
To tell him that You love him
You love him, You love him
What am I so afraid
What am I so afraid
What am I so afraid of?
How then will he know
What he has never heard?
I can remember the first time I ever heard this song. Molly came to pick me up from Allens friends house in Houston. I was so excited because I just got a new pipe and Allen gave me a healthy sack of dope to enjoy while I was home for the weekend. Nice, right? On the ride home, Molly put this song on and was quietly singing along. It wasn't till she hit repeat that I started to really listen to the words, by the end of the song I had to keep my head turned towards the window to hide my tears. Heaven Forbid Molly catch me expressing my feelings. She was probably just listening to it because she likes it, it's a good song, but it meant alot more to me. It really made me think, and it seemed appropriate for the situation. Me being the troubled one in the family, I never actually thought of what my actions were probably doing to my family. Selfish. I know better now. I've since then realized the error of my ways.
But what if I hadn't of realized when I did?
What if my selfishness went so far that I did something that was unfixable?
My prayers go out to Whitney and her family.
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