I've always said that I could never actually hate someone unless they did something to hurt my mom. (or the rest of my family) I know I've done a number on her, and hate myself for the things I have put her through. But what if the person who hurts my mother, is my father? For the last 21 years, he's been right about everything, unfortunately.. Until last night...........
We all knew this was coming... It was just a question as to when it would come. I really feel like my dad picked a good time to give my mom the bad news. My mom busts her ass all day, everyday to pay off her bills & provide for my sister and I. There's not a whole lot my mother would not for somebody in need. She gave and gave and gave all year long, not expecting anything in return. She definitely did not deserve what she got this Christmas. But my dad did, or will. Must be nice.
Merry Christmas Kathy, Mallory, Molly, Chloe, Bella, Johnny, Quasar and Rupert... Have a nice life. Good luck finding a place to live and whatever else you might need to stay alive.
The Roj is saying "Peace Out".
I'm completely lost. I can't begin to imagine what my poor mom has to be feeling right now. But I know that I myself am unable to think about anything other than the current situation at 1401 Edinburgh. I'm scared.. I haven't eaten since Monday afternoon, I can't eat. I can't see, my eyes burn so bad. And normally I do a good job of covering up my pain, but not anymore. I can't sleep.. I just don't understand alot of things.. And I'm having a difficult time trusting my dad now.. I overheard him say something that I still can't believe he said. I had alot of respect for my father up until the other night. Men are assholes..
I'm going to try and get a few hours of sleep.
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